What, how, when, and where?

I don't know what to do. I'm fighting a battle right now inside of my mind. It's a battle of what, how, when, & where. 

What should I do this summer?

How can I make enough money sufficient to support me through summer semester and for my mission?

When will I know if I ever get the job I apply for?

Where should I even apply?

WHAT
SHOULD
I

DO

?

I have yet to hear from EFY, (major bummer), so I assume I didn't get that job.

Should I work at Fishlake Resort and work my life away? Let's be honest, I have nothing else to do and I don't have any friends, so it would be fine.

However, I would have to work on Sundays and I also don't know if I would have internet access (for my online classes!) yikes.

I would make some good money and I would gain a bunch of work experience. I think I would somewhat enjoy it. But then again, I DON'T KNOW. 

Should I move home and try to find a job in Richfield? Let's be honest again, nobody wants to hire someone who is going to be there only for a few months unless it's a "seasonal" job.

Or

Should I try really hard to find a job here in Cedar? If I found a job here, I could possibly keep it throughout fall semester. However, I would DEFINITLEY have to live here and pay rent...

But I could probably move into the apartment that I will be living in during the fall. That way I wouldn't have to move as much!

Gahhhh so many options, so many choices, so many decisions.

I need to make money.

I need a job.

I guess this is all part of growing up. . . but I won't know how things will turn out unless I TRY and unless I put myself out there.

So here is to the future and lot's of praying.

Wish me luck.

Love,

Kate